Friday 30th march

Blk solat jumaat , kemas kereta dan susun kasut elok-elok.
Then keluar cari early birthday present untuk adik yang berlainan mak bapak.
So went to wheel love subang dan beli helmet for her longboard activity.
Then to the garden utk diri sendiri. I think i want to start painting. So bought myself canvas and oil paint .
Selesai belanja diri sendiri , went to kelana jaya for bbq dgn family sarawak. And baby ayden bangun nak main. So got to play with him sebentar sebelum friday futsal session at subang sport planet.
Hidung kena lutut dah senget, harap-harap tak patah. Esok pagi macam kena pergi xray jee.
Then , went back to ag's studio minum at kayu nasi kandar sebab qbistro was too crowded . Dah macam pusat pembiakan gay dah aku tengok.

So that was all for today.
Quite productive huh? :)

Goodnight lovers.
Love you

L

Give up

Im not going to search or try anything to impress.
I'll let it come naturally.
It would be better i guess.

:)

Everything

Apa lagi aku nak minta
Bila tuhan dah bagi
Segala-galanya.

:)

Run

When i feel alone, i put on my shoes , strap my iphone to my arm, stick in the earphone and run.

coward

if you are afraid of death, don't fight a war,
afraid of being caught , don't steal
takut kantoi, jangan pasang 2.

don't blame others on the shits that u do,
don't come pointing fingers ,
when before this what matters to you was where you point your dick.

semua orang ada real life issues rather to semakkan kepala with your scandals dude.
grow up.


Don't come and blame the fire if you got burnt,
when it is clearly your decision to play with it.

Don't cry and blame the rain ,
if you have caught fever,
because it was your choice .

berfikir dgn akal bukan zakar

Impian salam perantau

Mine was 2002.
9a2c . Haha the c shows how aku benci biologi and bertapa susahnya belajar bahasa arab dgn ustazah nasriah.

Excited ingatkan score spm boleh pergi oversea. Aku teringin nak buat salam perantau. Tapi sebab interview not so good, so last-last matrix je.

So dream of salam perantau went down the drain. Then kat penang matriculation , semua macam start from the scratch kau 9a ke 1a ke, kalau malas mampus kau lah.

So 4 flat matrix , bukan menjanjikan kejayaan juga. Tu hanya bagi aku kemampuan untuk pilih kursus apa aku nak kat university. The hell mann.

So lastly university. Kat sini baru Lah sampai kat jambatan yang connect you with the real world. Masa ni orang tak pandang kau spm apa sekolah mana, berapa puluh subject spm kau, yang penting kalau final cgpa kau barai. Kau barai for good.

So for everyone out there yang amik result spm harini. Flying colors wont give you an express passport to success. And untuk yang tak cantik result, dont worry in a year from now takde sape kisah berapa result spm kau. Move on. Fast.

Happy

Hold your own pen
And write your own story
Create your own happiness.

Never, never let others tell you what happiness is.
That is theirs. You have yours.
If takde create one.
Appreciate the small things.

The wind
Your mum smile
A chair to sit down
Delicious foods
Handphone coverage
A pat on the back
And the sun

Be happy
And then if you have someone special to share your happiness, that is a bonus. :)



L

Tak sunat

Sorang prince tak baligh
Sorang lagi tongong macam tak sunat
Macam pundek nak bash bash kat twitter.
Xde masalah lagi serius ke lah hai. Aku laga kepala dua-dua mangkok ni.
Hadui la satgi jadi agong camne la hai

to let go

of someone that was never mine,
of someone that makes the sun shine

maybe,

if not today , someday.
just maybe.

L

:*

baby be my kimbra
let me play with your hands
watch you laugh,
smells your hair.
and listen to you sing.

baby be my kimbra
come and play me my favorite song,
dance beside me,
and make me fall asleep.

Lets

Start painting on canvas
Scuba diving
Rock climbing
And take Everything seriously

switched off

perempuan cantik cerita MLM adalah pengendur nafsu.

kimbra

kimbra kimbra kimbra kimbra kimbra kimbra kimkimkim kim
brabrabrabra kimbra kimbra kimbra kimbrakimbra kimbrabrakimkim bra kimbra


mix of emotions

hidup ni,
kita tak lari dengan mix of emotions,
dalam masa serentak, dua perasaan yang contra ni saling balas-membalas,

orang diet yang makan nasi lemak,
bersetubuh dengan kambing,
curi makan dibulan puasa,
dan meniru dalam peperiksaan.

semua datang dengan dua perasaan, gembira dan bersalah.
mat salleh kata guilty pleasure. perasaan yang bercampur baur.
yang dalam suka tu, ada perasaan senak dalam hati dan susah untuk bernafas.

penah rasa?


tarik nafas panjang

Currently working on my resume,
applying for somewhere else.


trying for something new,

later will go and find myself a cheesecake, famous amos chocolate chips , and probably
tgk movie on my own.
that would be nice.

move on kareem,
life is full of surprises and a lot of people are getting fucked.
so it is not the end of your life.





Sigh

Just when i thought i can handle everything.
They just wont stop coming.
Sampai tahap aku tak boleh nak berdiri. Sampai btl2 aku tak dapat nak tampung beban berat macam ni.

aku cuba nak terima yg this is also part of the plan. At the same time terduduk jugak lah.


Hm too much

part of the plan

happiness is subjective,
macam mana kau define kegembiraan,
duit ,keluarga, kawan, isteri, kasih sayang, dan yang paling ultimate iman.

setengah orang dengan gaji 600 sebulan ,
dah gembira, dah bersyukur , boleh hidup tanpa sikit pun mengeluh,

setengah orang, sebab tiada allowance rumah seribu,
terus "fuck my life".

setengah orang tak perlukan orang lain untuk rasa puas dengan kehidupan,
dan setengah orang, kawan-kawan adalah kebahagiaan.
bila takde sesiapa, rasa muram, dan nak "fuck my life " juga.

it is how we define.
with ringgit and cent,
popularity,
or just as it is.

hidup dengan seadanya,
dan gembira dengan seadanya.

hujan, panas,
untung rugi,
lahir, mati,

semua ada isi sendiri.
semua bukan mistake.
termasuk percintaan yang separuh jalan.
termasuk perniagaan yang bangkrap,
termasuk masa silap yang gelap,
termasuk salah ceburi bidang,

semua bukan mistake.

everything was part of the plan.