Heart is not working well

It is going to be very hard to fall in love again

i am ok

so here it is,
so far so good,
a bit lonely once in awhile,
but its ok, i'll manage.


kawan kawan kawan

Ayat "alah kawan-kawan tak kan nak berkira" hanya akan keluar dari mulut orang yang sedang berkira dengan kawan-kawan.

kenapa instead of kawan yang buat business bantu kawan , kawan-kawan pula bantu business or event yang diusahakan oleh kawan sekali-sekala.
it applies in both ways kalau nak tau lah.

kadang-kadang kawan kita, itu lah mata pencarian dia,
kau sibuk nak mintak percuma,
macam mana?
patutnya harga kawan-kawan lagi tinggi,
sebab kawan nak membantu kawan kan?

weekend

hello sunday,
took a day off minggu ni,

this weekend was productive same like every other weekends.
Futsal on friday till 3 am ,
hantar 2 albums for printing, and head straight to PJ life art, for projek disko baldi,
what can i say, the RM45 was so damn worth it. I laugh through the 90 minutes show.
sumpah and looking forward for their next play. siapa nak tgk lagi sempat lagi petang ni 3pm and malam 830pm last .

Later after the show minum with the casts, and they were bunch of awesome individuals.
Have to head back to send off my sister. She's going back to Perlis, cuti dah habis.

Then went to the eightyfourcube studio . Last night session starts with tengku adil, followed by awanband , modread and ended by pop kon.

macam biasa, feels like home sebab banyak familiar faces and sandwich telur sumpah awesome.

ha
productive kan?

tv

gossip dan unnecessary stories,
keburukan pembangkang yang berterusan,
kemuliaan pihak kerajaan,
kisah bunuh yang tak henti-henti,
peperangan yang terus menerus sampai semua pun mati.






2012 is not bad at all

minggu ni balik kl tengok diskobaldi at PJLA.
next week to singapore for foo fighters.
next two weeks cuci cuci musical with kak peanut.
i am fully booked this march.
excited nak tunggu november, solo trip to south korea.
i have to start learn about south korea now.
perlu cari direction to naked club. haha.
supaya nanti boleh bogel dari hotel je terus.

stupid social networking assholes

social networking.
some people are possessed by it

they twitted what they talked ,
and they talked what they twitted.
they talked with the person they twitted,
and they twitted with the same person they talked.
they even twit among themselves when there hanging out together at mamak.
wtf.

they brag about numbers of their followers,
they curse to them who unfollowed them,

aku tak boleh nak imagine sekumpulan manusia ,
yang dalam kepala dia,
social networking is everything.
we have real life,
and have to work for money. instead of membebel takde duit,
and sibuk "aku kenal orang yang kaya sebab banyak follower"
fuck, that is bullshit.
orang kaya sebab usaha, musicians make music, painters paint, businessmen sell stuffs,
photographers take photos. itu usaha. bukan kaya sebab kumpul followers.

flow kekayaan macam ni :

musician make good music > people listen > people follow > people buy album and go to gigs > musician famous and got many offers> they got paid > musician kaya

bukan

musician make twitter account > ask people to follow them on twitter > rich

bodoh
my god,
these kids need what our ancestors call life.
bila dah taksub, macam ni lah , lancau.





hope

beberapa bulan lepas,
i went to amcorp mall and bought this nice bonzai for 40 ringgit,
watered it once a week for few months.
and didn't do anything more or less than that.

then,
2 months ago,
i moved to a new house,
i accidentally left the bonzai in my trunk,
for 3 weeks, or a month , or more, ok im not sure.

when i realized,
all the leafs have turn brown and and dry.
it is dying .
this is bad.
it is so gonna die, pain and suffocate. ok drama pulak. haha

So i put it at an open space, with no roof on top,
and walls around it,
and let it get all the sun and rain,

yesterday,
the brown dried leafs gone,
blown by the wind,
and new fresh and green leafs are coming out,
making a comeback .

i'll post gamba bonzai tu later :)

kerteh





some photos from my phone :) .

helo valentine

kita ada maulidur rasul,
maal hijrah,
raya haji,
aidiladha,

banyak dah hari yang kita sambut.

yes, mungkin valentine's day bukan upacara keagamaan orang kristian,
tapi seperti maulidur rasul kenapa ia di sambut?
because of what happened on that day.

aku bukan nak cerita macam ustaz ahzar, or ustaz don,
ilmu agama pun suam kuku, tapi apa yang hak dan batil tu,
dah terang. dan tak perlu di persoalkan.

memang lah on valentine's day kita tak berarak menyanjung St. Valentine,
but the idea of that day was celebrated to remember him.
dan kita yang buta ni mula lah cakap orang melayu suka mengharamkan semua benda.

bukan melayu. jangan main-main benda akidah.
Islam yang larang.

yes again,
aku tak sempurna, banyak kekurangan dan cacat cela,
tapi aku rasa terguris dengan sesetengah kawan yang mempersoalkan,
dan mati-mati mempersoalkan kenapa kita tak boleh menyambut valentine's day.

u have 365 days to celebrate love, and why must you bother on that one day.
sehari je ke untuk nak tunjuk kasih sayang ?

an old friend




felt better this week,
visited her at the hospital and getting to know her husband.
semoga lekas sembuh and make beautiful babies .


L